February 26, 2012
I am listening to KO’s “Capable.” I am really feeling the groove all through my body. The words that are resonating with me are, “I never had a clue that you were capable of love.” I am thinking about the value of relationships, not just the ones that last, but also the ones that do not stand the test of time. Not all people are meant to be in our life forever. I have had friends and lovers I’ve had to let go, and some that have let me go, no matter what side we are of that equation the experiences are valuable. All those people form this mosaic that decorates our soul, each interaction contributes to our story and who we are and who we are becoming on this journey of life. Recently I had a friendship end and just as I was reading the email ending it, my husband’s mobile rang and it was someone from my past. Was this a coincidence? No, it was definitely life talking to me. I had to ask myself if I had given this person a proper explanation 14 years ago? I would say the phone ringing at that precise moment was telling me I had not… I will not ignore this message. When the opportunity presents itself I will be having a long overdue conversation with this person. Sometimes in life we are the teacher, and others we are the student. It isn’t always obvious in the moment which title we hold in this equation, but eventually the message is revealed to us. Recently I’ve seen other people’s relationships end, some by choice, and some in the death of their loved one. I’ve shared in their heartache and can only offer to be an ear to listen and a hand to hold. As much as I want to help heal their pain, only time can do that for them. We are forever changed by the people that touch our lives, good or bad; as long as we keep that in mind, we will know none of it was a waste of time, it was all a vital part of our growth as part of humanity.